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I am trying to stay off it lately and I feel more, and right now, I am trying not to turn off my feelings. Facebook is just different than real life and I use it to numb myself from feeling. But it is different than when you see a long lost friend and ask how she is and she tells you that she just had a baby and the baby is there and you coo and cuddle the baby and talk and share and connect and feel something for this woman and her new miracle. You don’t have to feel anything about any of these updates or you can feel a little if you want or you can just skip to the next until you find one that you want to care about and maybe “like” it or comment. In seconds, you read about new babies, breakfast choices, weight loss struggles and triumphs, life, death, and potty training. If you ever want to really numb yourself, read gossip headlines and then maybe stare at your Facebook newsfeed for a while. “I have a life to get through and you are getting in the way.” I change my focus and read some stupid article about politics or gossip on a celebrity. “Stay down bad feelings I don’t want you,” I say. Pain starts to rise up and I shove it down. I can write that without emotion right now and sometimes when I see news stories about her, it feels like she is just another name in the news another headline of a tragedy that has happened to someone far away from me and my life. Linnea Lomax has been missing for more than two months now.